automailed: (what to do... what to do...)
Edward Elric ([personal profile] automailed) wrote2012-05-04 05:41 pm

[Voice]

[...One year already. The thought occurs to Edward rather suddenly, as he browses through the private journal he's kept on him since his arrival, cataloguing significant changes, arrivals and departures, important dates... height chart. (Shut up, he's allowed to be shallow about that.) It's easy to recognize the rises and falls of his moods- when people were kidnapped or sent back, when the home he'd lived in had experienced some sort of turmoil and he'd felt it via association. When he and Al had reached roadblocks and breakthroughs. When Mom had come.

There hadn't been any notes made when she and Al had left. He hadn't had the heart, and he'd never forget those dates anyway.

One year, though- one year, and he's made an astonishing amount of progress. He's gotten new automail, he's trained more, his alchemy is better than ever. He's learned some alkahestry. ...Sort of. He's sometimes even talked to his father like a human being instead of a bundle of hate and resentment all the time. And, more importantly, he's gone home and survived the Promised Day. He's achieved everything he'd set out to do after he and Al had failed to transmute their mother. And he's happy about it, obviously- ecstatic, overjoyed, victorious.

On the other hand... he's unsure. Because it raises a lot of questions about what the future will hold for him, what he wants to do with the rest of his life. And if he were to be completely honest about it, this is the first time in his life since he was five that he hasn't had a clear goal he wanted to accomplish.

That kind of freedom is almost terrifying.]


...Hey. If you couldn't do what you're doing right now - for a job, career, whatever - what would you want to do with your life instead?
savedtheworld: (sickly)

[Voice]

[personal profile] savedtheworld 2012-05-04 10:08 pm (UTC)(link)
If I can't be the Avatar, I'd like to just be a monk. ...But if I can't be any of the things I am right now, then... hmmm. Maybe make jewelry?

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[personal profile] oftheyin 2012-05-04 10:40 pm (UTC)(link)
Why would you want to change it?

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[personal profile] oftheyin 2012-05-04 11:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Then you should find a way to do it.

Is something wrong?

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[personal profile] oftheyin 2012-05-04 11:50 pm (UTC)(link)
I do not have such luxury.

But were you in need something? [She does care, Ed. She's just trying to be more professional.]

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[personal profile] oftheyin 2012-05-05 12:11 am (UTC)(link)
[NO! She'll always be married to it. Leave her alone!]

I will be whatever my family needs me to be, but I'd rather not be anything else.

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[personal profile] oftheyin 2012-05-05 12:20 am (UTC)(link)
What? [She's so confused. She answered the question, didn't she?]

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[personal profile] oftheyin 2012-05-05 12:32 am (UTC)(link)
Like play pretend? It was something Ling liked to do, and I would always be his bodyguard in them.

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[personal profile] oftheyin 2012-05-05 12:42 am (UTC)(link)
[YES! WHAT OF IT? Wanna fight about it?]

Well, things like being an emperor or explore, things like that.

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[personal profile] oftheyin 2012-05-05 12:51 am (UTC)(link)
[SHUT UP ED! YOU'RE JUST JEALOUS!]

It was just a childhood dream, nothing more. [He has more things to worry about now.]

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[personal profile] oftheyin 2012-05-05 12:59 am (UTC)(link)
Yes, and I would still wish to be by his side there as well.

[Her true wish would to be someone Ling could marry, but she'd never say that to Ed. And what's wrong with just wanting to protect Ling? She likes it.]

Re: voice;

[personal profile] oftheyin 2012-05-05 01:21 am (UTC)(link)
[She's just in love. And why you make this difficult?]

I've never known anything else other than being a bodyguard, but I do anything to make my grandfather proud. It doesn't matter what it is.

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[personal profile] oftheyin 2012-05-05 01:37 am (UTC)(link)
Yes, because they're important to me. I would think you would understand this. [You lost your mother Ed! Surely you could see where she's coming from.

Then she realizes how harsh that sounded.]
I'm sorry. I shouldn't have said that. I know you're asking "what if", but what if that's all I want? I live to serve, and I'm happy with that life. Does it matter if I do it in a different way?
mydearapple: (show me how defenseless you really are)

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[personal profile] mydearapple 2012-05-05 03:51 am (UTC)(link)
I can't say I've ever wanted to be anything else. But I guess if I had to pick something... [He pauses to consider it.

...

...okay, this is actually kind of hard. Hmm.]
I guess I could be a teacher. Or maybe a historian. I don't know if I'd be happy about it, though.

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